Fan poetry/ prose, aici.

iiiii nu ma pricep ^^"
nimeni altcineva ?

am incercat si eu aseara ceva...eram pe jumatate adormita..^^

Cand mai aveam doar o ora, mainile-mi tremurau de groaza..
Palide si neatinse de iubire, inghetau fara oprire..
Apoi in mare le-aruncam, in graba le sarutam..
Usor le desprindeam, pana nu le mai simteam..
Intotdeauna eu vedeam, cum de tristete ma stingeam..
In graba ardeam, dar mereu te vegheam..

Si acum dormi, dragul meu..
Asa cum ai facut mereu..
Stiu ca inima imi moare..
Alba, fara pic de culoare..
Dar eu voi veghea, mereu asupra ta..

si a doua..nici una n-are nume..

Nu totul pare sa doara..
Intr-o lume putrezita, de tot adormita..
Un cantec pare s-o trezeasca, pare sa vrea s-o ocroteasca..
Un scancet usor si pustiu, incearca sa fie zglobiu..
Dar tu esti prea adormit, nu stii daca ai auzit..
Mereu vei dormi in tacere, nu vei cauta mangaiere..
Nu vei mai auzi nici o suflare, atunci cand inima-ti moare..

m-a lovit inspiratia..

M-ai prins intre doua aripi grele, sangerii..
Ai lipit un sarut anemic pe gatul meu firav..
Fredonai acelasi cantec la nesfarsit..
Asupra-mi, cantai adormit..
Si m-ai facut sa cred ca stii..
Si m-ai facut sa cred ca vii..
Si Doamne cat te-am asteptat..
M-ai prins si m-ai ranit usor..
Stingandu-mi si ultimul dor..
M-ai parasit pustie-n ploaie..
Pe chip imi curgeau siroaie..
O culoare aramie..
Poate una sangerie..

As both our gazes found eachother,
Starring.
`Oh dear...` I whimpered,
As if I felt...Simpathy...?!
Horibly disgusted, I look away,
Dear God, but it's still there...!
Same expression, same features...
...Same ugliness as ever!
Why did God make me like this?
Begging for pure blindness,
As the mirror broke.
Pieces.
I can still see my own reflection...!
It's haunting me, as if
I was...CURSED to have this face,
Just keep begging.
`Oh dear...`
Still echoing, the sound of my own pity...!
Why...?
Why??
I deserve LOVE and to BE LOVED,
I deserve a slight attention..!
Not just insults and heart breaking words!
Not just...Hate.

Such beautiful girls,
Wander this earth...
Neither of them knows the pain and misery,
That only I could bare!
Such a shame, so disgracefull..!

And, if I would mention it,
People would just laugh,
AMUSED by..
My pain, my ...Self-Hatred!
Oh why?
Why can this ugly person DIE?

I wish I has that perfect face,
That perfect smile,
That perfect hair.
IMPURITY.
`Oh dear...`

Shuddering in loneliness, I await.
Wait..
Wait...!




For all of it to finally end.